just lemme explode here lahs
im very confused now...
mixture of bad feelings...
i dun realli haf anyone to tok to about...
cos it's like
i dunno howda kai kou
if i tell anybody anywayz...
~~~
anywayz...
dunno lah...
my mum is like having some probs
at work
(although the situation is not
as worse as somebody else's)
then she is like
she dun realli show it lorz
but can see her having lotta probs
~~~
she's having trouble at work
then she's very afraid that
my dad's medical condition might
get worse...
then she's so worried bout
my bro's n my results
n i dunno lah
n money issues...
~~~
she's like just pretending
there's no problem at all lorz
then like
at home
im not like who i am in school
im like
very, kinda, shy
then like
dun tok much bout these things
wif my parents
i dun dare to show concern
i dun dare to ask
how was their day
n ask bout their probz
~~~
budden like... dunno lah...
im like very worried bout her
but dun dare to tok to her bout it
in case i open my mouth
n i cry b4 her
cos im realli realli worried
~~~
i dunno howda express myself lorz
it's just not mi
not typical mi
at home
to do so...
~~~
then my bro is just like
realli not sensitive
then he's like kinda been
demanding this and that around
these few dayz
i dunno lah
i just feel so damn bad lorz...
~~~
hais...
then stupid lah...
my bro has alot of probs in school...
frenship probs
n leadership probs
n dunno lah
he is just despised in school...
"DESPISED"
~~~
then my dad oso...
he got like health prob
then got alot of probs at work
he dun say out
dun show out
but cum on lorz....
~~~
suddenly
i realli feel that
it's much more painful
to know ur loved ones are
having alot of troubles
n not wanting to tell you
rather than them having alot
of probs
n pouring them all out on u...
~~~
dunno lah...
listening to some songs
to cheer mi up
nvm...
im mugging...
i hafta work hard
i didnt get low enuff for my prelims
though it's alrd counted as
VERY low in my class...
~~~
i realli wanna do well lorz...
at least can let my parents
worry less...
just feeling so lost...
dunno lah...
STUPID LAH!
~~~
mugging to shut them off
bye bye
go do hw le...
~~~
jia you for ur examz!
tml got advanced paper le worh!
JIA YOU!
wish that all of u can
get ur desired grades!
=muackz all=
~signing off~
*jACkO*
